Catalyst To The Lumens – CR Kaine

She had no fucking clue what I was capable of. She didn’t know the insanity I’d put her through. But the best part—the best part—was that she’d love it. She craved it. I’d seen it the moment our eyes had met this morning when she’d realized it had been me breaking in. She was fucked up, just like me.

We were two demons dancing together, and I was completely entranced. Shortly after, she reappeared, stepping out with him, dressed for the day and ready to go on some adventure. They both looked ready for a walk. He wasn’t good enough for her. Too much of a pretty boy. She needed a man who could throw her up against a fucking wall and show her who was in charge—not this hipster chump who probably hadn’t eaten gluten a day in his life. I thought about following them, but that felt too risky.

Too easy to be spotted. Then, it hit me. I’d stop by my place quickly—pray no one was there to spot me. In and out. Oh, I had a surprise in store for my sweet girl. She was in for it. I couldn’t help but chuckle to myself. She might hate me after this, but I knew, deep down, she’d love me for it. 1kitap1.com/en Dahlia After Simon left, a weight lifted from my shoulders. One thing put to rest before I could move forward. I felt confident in my choices, even when it didn’t feel easy.

Was this what growth felt like? I walked back to my bedroom and ripped off the tight athletic wear I had thrown on. No more tight pants. No more suffocating sports bra. I flung the bra across the room, a small act of defiance in support of comfort. That felt better. I slipped into a fuzzy pair of pajama shorts and a loose, white crop top from the bottom drawer.

For a moment, I was tempted to crawl back into bed, but I knew that would lead to dozing in and out of sleep, ruining my night’s rest. No, I needed to get downstairs, tidy up the home I’d neglected while at work, and enjoy a quiet afternoon binge-watching Dateline. Jogging down the stairs, I made my way to the kitchen.

I remembered I’d already pulled out a mug for my morning cup of coffee, but quickly decided I needed a change. I needed something that would steer my day in a different direction than it had started.

Copyright © 2025 by C.R. Kaine All rights reserved. No part of this publication may be reproduced, stored or transmitted in any form or by any means, electronic, mechanical, photocopying, recording, scanning, or otherwise without written permission from the publisher. It is illegal to copy this book, post it to a website, or distribute it by any other means without permission. This novel is entirely a work of fiction. The names, characters and incidents portrayed in it are the work of the author’s imagination. Any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, events or localities is entirely coincidental.

First edition Cover art by coversby_amy Proofreading by Evelyn, English Proper Editing Services Editing by Hannah G. Scheffer-Wentz, English Proper Editing Services This book was professionally typeset on Reedsy Find out more at reedsy.com 1kitap1.com/en I Part One 1kitap1.com/en 1 Playlist Stream Catalyst to the Lumens playlist here https://open.spotify.com/playlist/7u9YZjJkzOn7Gdfw1Ckx9V? si=stv_h5O-Tb-fZawFxUmlpQ&pi=cHEcRU0zS1qvR “Broken Man” by BOYS LIKE GIRLS “Don’t Blame Me” by Taylor Swift “Teenage Rockstars” by Andrew McMahon in the Wilderness “twin flame” by mgk “Dangerous Woman” by Ariana Grande “She’s out of Her Mind” by blink-182 “She’s the Blade” by Sugarcult “Sucker for Pain” by Lil Wayne, Wiz Khalifa, Imagine Dragons, X Ambassadors, Logic, Ty Dolla $ign “Breathe (2 AM)” by Anna Nalick “Dragula” by Rob Zombie “THE DEATH OF PEACE OF MIND” by Bad Omens “Conversations in the Dark” by John Legend “Can’t be Saved” by Senses Fail “Bones” by In This Moment “Coming Undone” by Korn “It’s OK – Live MHS Studios” by Nightbirde “Give It All” by Rise Against “Closer” by Nine Inch Nails “God of Wine” by Third Eye Blind “Work Song” by Hozier “Just Pretend” by Bad Omens “Earned It” by The Weeknd “Eternally Yours” by Motionless in White 1kitap1.com/en 2 Trigger/Content Warnings Death of a child (off page) Drug addiction Gambling addiction Murder (off page) Attempted murder Stalking Grief and loss Violence Gore and blood Stabbing with a knife Use of a weapon (knife, rope, handgun) Sexual photography Drug use DV Abuse Physical assault Strong language Masked men Knife play Blood play Exhibitionism Trauma Edge play Voyeurism Strong sexual content 1kitap1.com/en 3 Dedication To all the feral ones out there who love a red flag, Welcome to the communications centre…

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