Delusions – Cazzie David

A time to start fresh and get rid of all the toxicity in your life, or so the infographics tell us. For some, it’s a time to celebrate how far we’ve come; to take stock, make toasts, and kiss our partners. For others, however, New Year’s gives us no reason to celebrate. It serves mostly as a reminder of all the progress we haven’t made that we promised ourselves we would.

Of everything we’ve lost in the last twelve months—of our failed relationships, dead relatives, rejected projects, dreams that slipped through our fingers yet again, despite our best intentions. That year, like most years, I fell in the latter camp. The seven months since my twenty-ninth birthday had been unproductive, a total failure, but it wasn’t over yet. I still had five months left to turn it around before thirty. These days, everybody has more or less the same New Year’s resolution: Work out more or Be on phone less.

It’s all pretty self-explanatory. We want to be healthier, happier, hotter. Working out helps with all three; the phones hurt all three. All year, the phones sapped us of life force, they rotted our brains, hurt our eyes, hunched our backs; we’re all addicted, it’s the biggest issue of our time, blah blah blah. But paradoxically, as the final weeks of December roll around, people seem to post more, not less.

Why? For one powerful and irresistible reason, what I’ll call the new year excuse. The new year excuse is not just any old excuse to post but rather a chance to publish anything from the entire year that you for whatever reason didn’t before, and might not ever be able to again. As Eminem would say, “You only get one shot, do not miss your chance to blow.

This opportunity comes once in a lifetime, yo.” The end-of-year dumps are a free-for-all for this reason. But if you look closely, there is some method to the madness.

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If you are reading this in the distant future, greetings! I have written this book to inform you of what life was like for a person like me in the so- called digital age! Please don’t hate me I’M BEGGING YOU. I’ve noticed that many writers (and artists of all kinds) try to absolve themselves by claiming that an identified flaw in their work was done on purpose.

“It was supposed to make you uncomfortable.” Or, “It was meant to feel utterly vacuous and self-indulgent.” “The characters were intentionally cliché. The dialogue was intended to be contrived.” “It was satire…” “It’s subversive.” “It’s a metaphor.” “It was meant to convey absolutely nothing!” “Nothingness was the point!!!” It would be like if I said about my last book, No One Asked for This, that “I wanted people to mistake my self-deprecation for complete tone deafness.”

Or, “It was supposed to feel like you were reading a fifteen-year- old’s diary that her enemy secretly published without her consent!” I guess artists are desperate (not me…) to not be criticized, and they think this little scheme will help shield them from that inevitability. Sometimes they’ll do it before the work is even reviewed, to try to get ahead of whatever they are most worried people might say.

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