How To Disappear And Why – Kyle Minor (1)

The Southern Baptists, your religious denomination of origin, who split away from the northern Baptists because they could not abide the northern Baptists’ opposition to American slavery, and who selectively punished violations of the community orthodoxies of speech or action by removing the violator from participation in the closed community, effectively cutting him or her off from everyone in his or her life. 2. The Apocalyptic prophecy people, who weaved in and out of all the ostensibly Christian communities you inhabited, insisting that the end of the world was drawing near, that sinners would be condemned to the coming terror of the worldwide reign of the Antichrist, that to think a wrong thought was to sin as badly as to commit the corresponding wrong deed, and that, therefore, a person must constantly police and purge one’s own thoughts to avoid Seven Years of terror on earth followed by an eternity of flesh-rending torment in the literal Lake of Fire.

3. The fundamentalists at the immersive Christian school you attended from age three until graduation at age seventeen, who required uniformity of clothing, manners, speech, and thought, and who selectively punished certain violations of the community orthodoxies of speech or action with expulsion from the closed community, effectively cutting off the violator from almost every peer he or she had ever known. 25.

Here’s the second half of the preoccupation: When you fled the Southern Baptists, the Apocalypse people, the fundamentalists, you meant to flee to the people who opened up the floor for conversation. (This—the floor opened for conversation—is, in fact, the way that you came to the tentative understanding that one half of what you fled was irrational and the other half was in the service of preserving the status quo that served the powerful.) When you fled the Southern Baptists, the Apocalypse people, the fundamentalists, you meant to flee the idea that to think or say it wrong was to be eternally cast out.

When you fled, it was to the world of the progress of ideas, which always transgress before they become accepted or acceptable. To the world of the university, where people who disagreed could gather in a public place and work it out, or at least offer their strident positions and air them to the scrutiny of the people in the room who are spending the first four years of their adulthood trying to work it out.

Most of all, to literature, which so rewired your brain that for a while you had unconsciously adopted it as a new kind of religion, with an enormous and contradictory library of scriptures that declared themselves fallible even before they began their project of demonstrating the irreconcilability of all things, sometimes in the pursuit of some measure of reconciliation, sometimes not.

26. You’re circling something.

All rights reserved. No part of this book may be reproduced without written permission of the publisher. Earlier versions of portions of this manuscript originally appeared in New England Review, New Ohio Review, and New York Times Book Review. Publisher’s Cataloging-in-Publication (Provided by Cassidy Cataloguing Services, Inc.) Names: Minor, Kyle, author. Title: How to disappear and why : essays / Kyle Minor.

Description: First edition. | Louisville, Kentucky : Sarabande Books, [2026] Identifiers: ISBN: 9781956046571 (paperback) | 9781956046588 (ebook) Subjects: LCSH: Disappearances (Parapsychology) | Vanishings (Parapsychology) | Ghosts. | Temples. | Exile (Punishment) | LCGFT: Essays. Classification: LCC: PS3613.I657 H68 2026 | DDC: 814/.6–dc2 All efforts to obtain permission from rightsholders have been made. Cover by Danika Isdahl. Printed in the USA on acid-free paper. Sarabande Books is a nonprofit literary organization. This project is supported in part by an award from the National Endowment for the Arts. The Kentucky Arts Council, the state arts agency, supports Sarabande Books with state tax dollars and federal funding from the National Endowment for the Arts.

OceanofPDF.com for Nia and Dylan OceanofPDF.com CONTENTS I. (thirteen notions to interrogate) How to Disappear and Why II. (three ghosts of personal preoccupation) A Theory of Ghosts The Uber Diaries On the Desire to Reject Narcissism III. (cowardice, conformity, courage) The Lizard, the Stink, the Bear, the Game, the Road to Somewhere Hiding in Plain Sight IV. (one hundred fifty-nine digressions on the ephemeral) Junk Temples V. (three specimens, a diagnosis, an exhortation) The Sickness and the Song Notes, Sources, and Suggestions for Further Reading OceanofPDF.com I.

(THIRTEEN NOTIONS TO INTERROGATE) Heavy pink-lined clouds to the north tell me where land is, but I feel glad not to see it just now. —Bernard Moitessier OceanofPDF.com How to Disappear and Why I. Reasons to Disappear Perhaps you are ashamed. Perhaps the Lord turned you for seven years into an animal like Nebuchadnezzar. Perhaps you were ordered by a court to disappear into incarceration.

Perhaps you were ordered at gunpoint to disappear into exile. Perhaps something in the culture has made you afraid. Perhaps something in your secret life has made you afraid. Perhaps like Handkerchief Moody the one you loved has rejected your love and you no longer want another to see your own face.

Perhaps your public success has activated the jealousy of others and you are afraid to continue to be seen. Perhaps you have seen the public success of others activate the jealousy of people who desire what the others have, and although you have no evidence that your own small success, real or imagined, has activated the jealousy of people in your own circle, you are still afraid that too much ongoing exposure will activate such a jealousy, and therefore you are afraid to continue to be seen.

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