I Don’t Think I’m Straight – Dorta, Isabella

i breathe and taste this sin in my mouth and i am not religious in the slightest but i’m still sinning, aren’t i? i’m still thinking about sinning and thinking about sinning and thinking about sinning and thinking about touching her and thinking about kissing her and thinking about loving her and i really don’t want to admit it, but i really want to do it. OceanofPDF.com fear has a hold of my hands and this body is stone-cold— clawing inside of me to be let out, desire calls for me.

it calls for love, warmth, breathlessness. it is louder, still. let me find peace on a bed that i do not own. i will cook us girl dinner to eat on laid tables, with flower tablecloths and pink plates and i will kiss your lipstick mouth clean. oh is this wrong? is this wrong is this wrong? OceanofPDF.com and one night, one unassuming, one not-very-special night, after weeks of quiet yearning, she places her hand on my cheek.

she places her hand on my cheek. i fall into her body and pulses shift uncomfortably until they are raging in ears. hot breath, shaking fingers, hair brushed out of face. something unstoppable has started. OceanofPDF.com i was not prepared for how good this would feel. without watchful eyes or alcohol-hazed vision. i have imagined this for so long, fallen asleep hot and bothered and with my thighs twisted together. i have pretended to touch and stroke my own hair and my own body and yet nothing, nothing, has ever come close to this.

i squirm and i sigh and i moan. OceanofPDF.com if she took her hands from my waist i think my guts might just spill out. my skin clearly cannot be trusted. red and embarrassed, sensitive and pleading for all of hers, i will empty myself on the floor in front of her— shoes—and friendship— ruined quicker than you can say “more, please.” containing this feels impossible.

how did i contain this for so long? OceanofPDF.com and she kisses me again. and she kisses me again. and she kisses me again. and how sweet it is, to finally give in to everything you have ever thought about being. OceanofPDF.com sticky skin pulls as we separate, eyes looking downward and regret lashing at our throats.

other works by the author: how sunflowers bloom under moonlight how to be heartbroken. how to be mentally well. the letters i will never send. deluded: a guide to situationships OceanofPDF.com OceanofPDF.com I Don’t Think I’m Straight copyright © 2026 by Isabella Dorta. All rights reserved. Printed in the United States of America. No part of this book may be used or reproduced in any manner whatsoever without written permission, except in the case of reprints in the context of reviews. The authorised representative in the EEA is Simon and Schuster Netherlands BV, Herculesplein 96 3584 AA Utrecht, Netherlands.

([email protected]) Andrews McMeel Publishing a division of Andrews McMeel Universal 1130 Walnut Street, Kansas City, Missouri 64106 www.andrewsmcmeel.com I Don’t Think I’m Straight was first published in the UK by Ebury, an imprint of Random House Group Limited. 26 27 28 29 30 VEP 10 9 8 7 6 5 4 3 2 1 ISBN: 979-8-8816-0555-1 Library of Congress Control Number: 2025942732 Editors: Patty Rice and Kate Zimmermann Art Director: Tiffany Meairs Production Editor: Brianna Westervelt Production Manager: Jeff Preuss ATTENTION: SCHOOLS AND BUSINESSES Andrews McMeel books are available at quantity discounts with bulk purchase for educational, business, or sales promotional use.

For information, please email the Andrews McMeel Publishing Special Sales Department: [email protected]. OceanofPDF.com to every woman i have ever loved, and to those i was too afraid to. OceanofPDF.com TW: homophobia, sexual assault, trauma, self-harm, mental health please be aware that while there is a lot of joy and freedom in discovering your sexuality, there is also a hell of a lot of discomfort; of funny looks; of danger; of loss.

not every story is the same. not every queer person experiences acceptance. not every coming out ends happily. like many, i have found peace in my community; i have found a home. and while i now feel no shame about putting my pronouns in my bio, or a gay sticker on my water bottle, sixteen-year-old me did. this book is for her. and for you, whoever you are.

OceanofPDF.com chapters I. lost • II. liar • III. skin • IV. true • V.

This is a short excerpt from the opening of “I Don’t Think I’m Straight” by Dorta, Isabella, quoted for review and introduction purposes. All rights belong to the copyright holders.

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• Title: I Don’t Think I’m Straight
• Author: Dorta, Isabella
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• Pages: 185
• Language: English (en)
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Table of Contents

• Page 3: Title Page
• Page 5: Copyright
• Page 6: Dedication
• Page 8: Contents
• Page 11: I. lost
• Page 46: II. liar
• Page 68: III. skin
• Page 104: IV. true
• Page 150: V. safe
• Page 183: Acknowledgments
• Page 185: About the Author

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