Insanity – Xavier Neal

Looking sweet. Innocent. “Why does your bed–” I cut myself off. “Our bed–” Fuck that’s not right either. “The bed you sleep in–” not the best save, but fuck it, “smell like my cologne?” the question has my mind racing. “Are you really asking me if I let another guy in our bed? Right after asking me on a date Clint?” My jaw clenches tight. It wasn’t even a possibility. The thought didn’t even cross my mind. Before I can respond she snaps, “Wow.

Just because I made one mistake doesn’t mean I’m dumb enough to make another.” Her voice drops to a tremble, “Do you know how hard it was to let you that close to my body? How could you think I would just do that with anyone?” “You kissed someone else,” the accusation is out of my mouth before I can stop it. “What’s the difference?” The second I see a tear in her eye I shut my eyes and look down. Too wrong. Too far.

I clutch the rag tighter. “You wanna know the reason our sheets smell like you? The therapist discussed different coping mechanisms for dealing with loved ones you’ve lost. Occasionally I would spray the cologne in the sheets when I woke up in the morning, so it would be faded by the time I fell asleep. It was like being surrounded by you when you weren’t around. It helped keep the nightmares away sometimes. And others, when they came anyway, well, it helped jog my memory to when you held me close and protected me.

It was enough to calm me back down to try to rest.” Her words rip through me. My knees buckle. I fight back to stay strong on my feet. To not look weak where she can see. To hide the fact this affects me the way it does. In a low voice I ask, “Loved ones you lost? As in death.

But I’m not dead.” “Part of you is,” she states wiping away the tear that managed to fall. The same tear I swore I would never be the reason for. My jaw tenses to stop from pulsating. “And I know it’s my fault.

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All are fictional and any resemblance to real life persons or places is purely coincidental OceanofPDF.com Unknown Days Til Deployment For over the hundredth time, I carefully trace the sunflower on the cover of the journal. No exaggeration. I don’t want to open this. I don’t need to. But I know I should.

I know that dad wants me too. That Slugger deep inside who has been banned from acknowledgment while I was training wants a peek behind the curtain. Wants to have a reason to speak up. He doesn’t need a reason. He shouldn’t get one. I won’t give him one. I toss the journal to the side so it lands where it always does. On the pillow I sleep next to. The pillow that months ago I dreamt of being occupied by Haven. Dreamt of a future with the woman I love more than myself.

But that was months ago. That was when Slugger was still taking advice from Mindy. When Clint was looking at engagement rings against his father’s will. But now Grim is back. And Grim dreams of nothing. My cell phone presses against my ear as I flop down on the hotel bed. It rings twice before it’s answered.

“Marine.” With respect in my voice I reply, “Sir.” After a beat there’s a long exhale, “It’s damn good to hear from you son…” I smile faintly. “How was graduation?” “First in my class sir.” “Wow,” his voice is dripping with pride. “I’m impressed.” “Thank you sir.” Before I actually started school I figured I would be in the top of my class, but then the need to redefine myself all over again and re declare Grim to the world, caused me to push harder.

At times too hard. Hard enough in fact, that I graduated with more than honors. “You doing alright?” “Yes sir.” “Slugger.” “Yeah dad.” I make the effort to fine tune the military down a notch. Remind him he hasn’t lost his son again. “I’m fine.” “Coming home?” The dreaded question.

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