{"id":251563,"date":"2026-07-13T01:20:52","date_gmt":"2026-07-12T22:20:52","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/1kitap1.com\/en\/almost-ruined-abby-millsaps-1\/"},"modified":"2026-07-13T01:20:52","modified_gmt":"2026-07-12T22:20:52","slug":"almost-ruined-abby-millsaps-1","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/1kitap1.com\/en\/almost-ruined-abby-millsaps-1\/","title":{"rendered":"Almost Ruined &#8211; Abby Millsaps (1)"},"content":{"rendered":"<figure style=\"text-align:center;margin:0 auto 1.5em;\"><img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/1kitap1.com\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/07\/08bf16d7cdd51e4b.jpg\" alt=\" - Unknown book cover\" style=\"max-width:300px;width:100%;height:auto;box-shadow:0 4px 12px rgba(0,0,0,.25);border-radius:4px;\"\/><\/figure>\n<p>\u201cThat\u2019s not what I meant, mon ange.\u201d He\u2019s angry, yet the term of endearment calms my nerves. Leaning closer, he nudges his nose against mine. \u201cWhy did you go to that party last night? Why did you take whatever you took?\u201d Oh. That. This line of questioning makes more sense. I blink slowly, the shame creeping back in. Again, I stick with the straightforward truth.<\/p>\n<p>It feels like the only real path forward, and my only hope of working through the mess I\u2019ve created. Opening my eyes, I peek up through my lashes and catch my bottom lip between my teeth. \u201cI wanted to forget.\u201d Ty presses his thumb to my lip, releasing it, then softly, almost in slow motion, leans forward and kisses me. It\u2019s a quick, barely there peck. But it inspires an eruption of butterflies in my belly, each one frantically fluttering its wing and stoking an intense, unwarranted sense of hope inside me.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cKeep talking,\u201d he encourages. \u201cWhat did you want to forget?\u201d \u201cAll of it. All of you.\u201d The butterflies settle, the sensation replaced by a dull ache in my chest. \u201cThat night in the locker room after your first game. All those nights in my dorm. The dinner with the staff from the Galaxy. Our fight afterward. All the times I pushed Mercer and Noah away. All the choices I made, and the ways I attempted to navigate this. Everything I did to contribute to you getting hurt in the barn.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>It doesn\u2019t surprise me that I fell back on my old vices. Partying has always been my favorite way to cope. Ty just doesn\u2019t know that side of me. Sometimes I wish I didn\u2019t know that side of me either. My less-than-healthy coping mechanisms are really fucking stupid. Deep down, I think that\u2019s why I revel in them. I\u2019m human.<\/p>\n<blockquote>\n<p>No portion of this book may be reproduced, distributed, or transmitted in any form without written permission from the author, except by a reviewer who may quote brief passages in a book review. This book is a work of fiction. Any resemblance to any person, living or dead, or any events or occurrences, is purely coincidental. The characters and story lines are created by the author\u2019s imagination and are used fictitiously.<\/p>\n<p>Line Editing, Copyediting, and Proofreading by VB Edits Cover Design \u00a9 Silver at Bitter Sage Designs 1kitap1.com\/en Contents Dedication Blurb Content Warning Author&#8217;s Note 1. Tytus 2. Noah 3. Mercer 4. Noah 5. Sawyer 6. Mercer 7. Sawyer 8. Sawyer 9. Noah 10. Mercer 11. Tytus 12. Sawyer 13. Tytus 14. Sawyer 15. Sawyer 16. Mercer 17. Noah 18. Tytus 19. Sawyer 20. Sawyer 21. Sawyer 22. Tytus 23. Noah 24. Mercer 25. Tytus 26. Tytus 27. Mercer 28. Sawyer 29.<\/p>\n<p>Mercer 30. Sawyer 31. Noah 32. Sawyer 33. Mercer 34. Tytus 35. Noah 36. Sawyer 37. Mercer 38. Sawyer 39. Sawyer 40. Sawyer 41. Tytus 42. Noah 43. Sawyer 44. Mercer 45. Tytus 46. Sawyer 47. Tytus 48. Sawyer 49. Sawyer 50. Sawyer 51. Sawyer 52. Sawyer 53. Mercer 54. Tytus 55. Mercer 56. Sawyer 57. Noah 58. Tytus 59. Noah 60. Mercer 61. Sawyer 62. Tytus Epilogue: Tytus Epilogue: Noah Afterword Acknowledgments Also By Abby Millsaps About The Author 1kitap1.com\/en To the readers who read this series as it was released and endured the most brutal cliffhangers I&#8217;ve ever written.<\/p>\n<p>Sorry about Chapter 1. This one is for you. 1kitap1.com\/en Blurb Mutual destruction makes way for hope and healing in Almost Ruined, the third and final book in the new dark, why choose, college hockey romance series from bestselling author Abby Millsaps. I told Mercer I\u2019d never forgive him, and I meant every word of that promise. He hurt Tytus in the most awful, deleterious way while Noah just stood by and let it happen.<\/p>\n<p>All three men in my life have contributed to the toxic, unnecessary agony of our collective heartache, but I\u2019m the one who brought them together. This is all my fault. Everything is ruined, and I have no one to blame but myself. I almost captured that once-in-a-lifetime kind of love, and I was lucky enough to experience it three times over.<\/p>\n<p>But almost has never been enough. I\u2019ll miss Mercer\u2019s bold, dominant attentiveness just as much as I\u2019ll yearn for Noah\u2019s sweet, gentle brand of care. I\u2019ll spend the rest of my life craving Ty\u2019s intense possessiveness. It all ends now. I refuse to choose between them, so I\u2019m opting out entirely.<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n<p><em>This is a short excerpt from the opening of &ldquo;&rdquo; by Unknown, quoted for review and introduction purposes. 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