{"id":255516,"date":"2026-07-13T04:23:55","date_gmt":"2026-07-13T01:23:55","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/1kitap1.com\/en\/catalyst-to-the-lumens-cr-kaine\/"},"modified":"2026-07-13T04:23:55","modified_gmt":"2026-07-13T01:23:55","slug":"catalyst-to-the-lumens-cr-kaine","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/1kitap1.com\/en\/catalyst-to-the-lumens-cr-kaine\/","title":{"rendered":"Catalyst To The Lumens – CR Kaine"},"content":{"rendered":"
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She had no fucking clue what I was capable of. She didn\u2019t know the insanity I\u2019d put her through. But the best part\u2014the best part\u2014was that she\u2019d love it. She craved it. I\u2019d seen it the moment our eyes had met this morning when she\u2019d realized it had been me breaking in. She was fucked up, just like me.<\/p>\n

We were two demons dancing together, and I was completely entranced. Shortly after, she reappeared, stepping out with him, dressed for the day and ready to go on some adventure. They both looked ready for a walk. He wasn\u2019t good enough for her. Too much of a pretty boy. She needed a man who could throw her up against a fucking wall and show her who was in charge\u2014not this hipster chump who probably hadn\u2019t eaten gluten a day in his life. I thought about following them, but that felt too risky.<\/p>\n

Too easy to be spotted. Then, it hit me. I\u2019d stop by my place quickly\u2014pray no one was there to spot me. In and out. Oh, I had a surprise in store for my sweet girl. She was in for it. I couldn\u2019t help but chuckle to myself. She might hate me after this, but I knew, deep down, she\u2019d love me for it. 1kitap1.com\/en Dahlia After Simon left, a weight lifted from my shoulders. One thing put to rest before I could move forward. I felt confident in my choices, even when it didn\u2019t feel easy.<\/p>\n

Was this what growth felt like? I walked back to my bedroom and ripped off the tight athletic wear I had thrown on. No more tight pants. No more suffocating sports bra. I flung the bra across the room, a small act of defiance in support of comfort. That felt better. I slipped into a fuzzy pair of pajama shorts and a loose, white crop top from the bottom drawer.<\/p>\n

For a moment, I was tempted to crawl back into bed, but I knew that would lead to dozing in and out of sleep, ruining my night\u2019s rest. No, I needed to get downstairs, tidy up the home I\u2019d neglected while at work, and enjoy a quiet afternoon binge-watching Dateline. Jogging down the stairs, I made my way to the kitchen.<\/p>\n

I remembered I\u2019d already pulled out a mug for my morning cup of coffee, but quickly decided I needed a change. I needed something that would steer my day in a different direction than it had started.<\/p>\n

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Copyright \u00a9 2025 by C.R. Kaine All rights reserved. No part of this publication may be reproduced, stored or transmitted in any form or by any means, electronic, mechanical, photocopying, recording, scanning, or otherwise without written permission from the publisher. It is illegal to copy this book, post it to a website, or distribute it by any other means without permission. This novel is entirely a work of fiction. The names, characters and incidents portrayed in it are the work of the author’s imagination. Any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, events or localities is entirely coincidental.<\/p>\n

First edition Cover art by coversby_amy Proofreading by Evelyn, English Proper Editing Services Editing by Hannah G. Scheffer-Wentz, English Proper Editing Services This book was professionally typeset on Reedsy Find out more at reedsy.com 1kitap1.com\/en I Part One 1kitap1.com\/en 1 Playlist Stream Catalyst to the Lumens playlist here https:\/\/open.spotify.com\/playlist\/7u9YZjJkzOn7Gdfw1Ckx9V? si=stv_h5O-Tb-fZawFxUmlpQ&pi=cHEcRU0zS1qvR \u201cBroken Man\u201d by BOYS LIKE GIRLS \u201cDon\u2019t Blame Me\u201d by Taylor Swift \u201cTeenage Rockstars\u201d by Andrew McMahon in the Wilderness \u201ctwin flame\u201d by mgk \u201cDangerous Woman\u201d by Ariana Grande \u201cShe\u2019s out of Her Mind\u201d by blink-182 \u201cShe\u2019s the Blade\u201d by Sugarcult \u201cSucker for Pain\u201d by Lil Wayne, Wiz Khalifa, Imagine Dragons, X Ambassadors, Logic, Ty Dolla $ign \u201cBreathe (2 AM)\u201d by Anna Nalick \u201cDragula\u201d by Rob Zombie \u201cTHE DEATH OF PEACE OF MIND\u201d by Bad Omens \u201cConversations in the Dark\u201d by John Legend \u201cCan\u2019t be Saved\u201d by Senses Fail \u201cBones\u201d by In This Moment \u201cComing Undone\u201d by Korn \u201cIt\u2019s OK \u2013 Live MHS Studios\u201d by Nightbirde \u201cGive It All\u201d by Rise Against \u201cCloser\u201d by Nine Inch Nails \u201cGod of Wine\u201d by Third Eye Blind \u201cWork Song\u201d by Hozier \u201cJust Pretend\u201d by Bad Omens \u201cEarned It\u201d by The Weeknd \u201cEternally Yours\u201d by Motionless in White 1kitap1.com\/en 2 Trigger\/Content Warnings Death of a child (off page) Drug addiction Gambling addiction Murder (off page) Attempted murder Stalking Grief and loss Violence Gore and blood Stabbing with a knife Use of a weapon (knife, rope, handgun) Sexual photography Drug use DV Abuse Physical assault Strong language Masked men Knife play Blood play Exhibitionism Trauma Edge play Voyeurism Strong sexual content 1kitap1.com\/en 3 Dedication To all the feral ones out there who love a red flag, Welcome to the communications centre\u2026<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n

This is a short excerpt from the opening of “” by Unknown, quoted for review and introduction purposes. All rights belong to the copyright holders.<\/em><\/p>\n

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