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* * * 11.5 years ago\u2026 \u2014 Dear Jensen, I miss you. I keep hoping to hear from you, but I know you\u2019re probably getting settled in. My college acceptance offers are rolling in, but I think I want to stay here and visit as much as I can. These six years will fly by, I promise. I read online that you get to make phone calls, so please, call me.<\/p>\n

I feel like you\u2019re mad at me. Love, \u2014 Dear Jensen, Please, reach out to me. I miss you. I\u2019m worried sick. If you\u2019re mad at me about Mr. Arkett then I apologize and will apologize over and over. I knew it was wrong, and I never meant for you to find out that way. I knew you\u2019d be protective of me. You always have been. I\u2019m sorry for everything. Your best friend, \u2014 Dear Jensen, I\u2019m falling apart without you.<\/p>\n

I need you. I\u2019m not going to college. I can\u2019t live my life knowing that you\u2019re stuck in there because of me. I\u2019ll wait for you. I need you. Please, talk to me. Yours, always, Olive \u2014 Olive, I don\u2019t want to talk to you. I don\u2019t want to see you. Don\u2019t try contacting me again. By the time you read this, I\u2019ll be dead. \u2014 OceanofPDF.com Chapter Twenty-Five Hayes ou feel like eating?\u201d Lochlan asks from outside my temporary prison cell. He was in one long enough.<\/p>\n

He knows how to make something work on the fly. \u201cNo.\u201d \u201cIf I open the gate, are you going to try to leave again?\u201d \u201cYes.\u201d He sighs, rubbing his hand over his head. \u201cIt\u2019s nearly midnight.\u201d \u201cSo?\u201d The moon has been out for hours, but the floodlight beside the barn is the only thing providing me with any light. He holds up a piece of folded paper in his hand. \u201cI want to give you this, but I need to know that your freak show from earlier is over with.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cWhy? Afraid I\u2019ll hurt you again?\u201d His purple cheek and swollen eye socket stare at me through the cage bars. He chuckles. \u201cYou look worse than I do, pretty boy. Besides, I got you in here once, I\u2019ll do it twice if I have to.\u201d \u201cYou only managed because you got me in a headlock when I wasn\u2019t looking.<\/p>\n

It was a cheap shot.\u201d \u201cA cheap shot that saved you from doing something stupid.\u201d \u201cDoesn\u2019t matter now.\u201d She\u2019s a married woman. He tips the paper forward between the metal bars, handing it to me. \u201cWhat is this?\u201d \u201cJo told me I needed to give this to you asap.\u201d I unfold the first crease, but my cracked and bloody hand stills. \u2014 Dear Jensen, \u2014 \u201cIs this a joke?\u201d I don\u2019t take my eyes off the handwriting that I know by heart.<\/p>\n

I don\u2019t have to unfold the second half of the paper to know it\u2019s from her. \u201cRead it, I\u2019ll be on the porch.\u201d<\/p>\n

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First published by AC Books 2026 Copyright \u00a9 2026 by Amber Cassidy All rights reserved. No part of this publication may be reproduced, stored, or transmitted in any form or by any means, electronic, mechanical, photocopying, recording, scanning, or otherwise without written permission from the publisher. It is illegal to copy this book, post it to a website, or distribute it by any other means without permission. This novel is entirely a work of fiction. The names, characters, and incidents portrayed in it are the work of the author’s imagination.<\/p>\n

Any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, events, or localities is entirely coincidental. Amber Cassidy asserts the moral right to be identified as the author of this work. Amber Cassidy has no responsibility for the persistence or accuracy of URLs for external or third-party Internet Websites referred to in this publication and does not guarantee that any content on such Websites is, or will remain, accurate or appropriate.<\/p>\n

Designations used by companies to distinguish their products are often claimed as trademarks. All brand names and product names used in this book and on its cover are trade names, service marks, trademarks, and registered trademarks of their respective owners. The publishers and the book are not associated with any product or vendor mentioned in this book. None of the companies referenced within the book have endorsed the book.<\/p>\n

First edition ISBN: 979-8-9890036-8-6 This book was professionally typeset on Reedsy Find out more at reedsy.com OceanofPDF.com Contents Preface Acknowledgments Chapter One Chapter Two Chapter Three Chapter Four Chapter Five Chapter Six Chapter Seven Chapter Eight Chapter Nine Chapter Ten Chapter Eleven Chapter Twelve Chapter Thirteen Chapter Fourteen Chapter Fifteen Chapter Sixteen Chapter Seventeen Chapter Eighteen Chapter Nineteen Chapter Twenty Chapter Twenty-One Chapter Twenty-Two Chapter Twenty-Three Chapter Twenty-Four Chapter Twenty-Five Chapter Twenty-Six Chapter Twenty-Seven Chapter Twenty-Eight Chapter Twenty-Nine Chapter Thirty Chapter Thirty-One Chapter Thirty-Two Chapter Thirty-Three Chapter Thirty-Four Chapter Thirty-Five Chapter Thirty-Six Chapter Thirty-Seven Chapter Thirty-Eight Chapter Thirty-Nine Chapter Forty Chapter Forty-One Chapter Forty-Two Chapter Forty-Three Chapter Forty-Four Chapter Forty-Five Chapter Forty-Six Chapter Forty-Seven Chapter Forty-Eight Chapter Forty-Nine Chapter Fifty Chapter Fifty-One Chapter Fifty-Two Epilogue Chance Encounters Series About the Author Also by Amber Cassidy OceanofPDF.com Preface This is a dual-timeline, second-chance romance with a lot of angst and unresolved tension\u2026<\/p>\n

They both have different versions of their story, and they have to come to terms with their past before they can move forward into their future. But as always, you\u2019ll get a happily ever after! Enjoy! *There is an overlap in the timeline of this book and the last book, First Chance.* TW: There are tough topics discussed, such as Suicidal Ideation and Attempted Suicide\u2014content warning: Violence, Assault, Suicide, Attempted Sexual Assault.<\/p>\n

OceanofPDF.com Acknowledgments I am grateful to have real-life inspiration for writing the friendships in this story.<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n

This is a short excerpt from the opening of “” by Unknown, quoted for review and introduction purposes. All rights belong to the copyright holders.<\/em><\/p>\n

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