{"id":261935,"date":"2026-07-13T18:42:10","date_gmt":"2026-07-13T15:42:10","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/1kitap1.com\/en\/hade-anastasija-white\/"},"modified":"2026-07-13T18:42:10","modified_gmt":"2026-07-13T15:42:10","slug":"hade-anastasija-white","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/1kitap1.com\/en\/hade-anastasija-white\/","title":{"rendered":"Hade – Anastasija White"},"content":{"rendered":"
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Fuck, what I wouldn\u2019t give to join her. All I want is to step into her room, climb into her bed, and hold her until morning comes. To soak in her warmth so I can feel alive again. But that would be unfair to her. It would break the promise I made. Last night was a fucking dream come true, but it can\u2019t happen again.<\/p>\n

So, I slowly pull her door closed and head to my room, hoping the quiet will seep into me and filter out the noise. OceanofPDF.com the last last time I wake up at noon, my head pounding, and drag myself to the shower. The cold water brings a little relief, and when I finally make it to the kitchen, I feel a bit more like me. I have a quick breakfast, chug a cup of coffee, and pop some aspirin.<\/p>\n

Riley isn\u2019t home, and her absence makes my loneliness more prickly, more tangible. She\u2019s only been here a week, and already, I\u2019ve gotten attached to having breakfast with her. What will I do once she leaves? The thought of her being gone makes my gut churn. I\u2019m climbing into the car, heading to the grocery store, when Ines calls. \u201cHey. What\u2019s up?\u201d The sound of her sniffling is like a slap upside my head. I tense, my grip on the phone tightening.<\/p>\n

\u201cInes? What\u2019s wrong?\u201d \u201cIs it true?\u201d Frowning, I turn the key in the ignition. \u201cWhat are you talking about?\u201d \u201cIs it true you\u2019re going to release a new album? Songs using\u2026Ow- Owen\u2019s voice?\u201d She sniffles again. \u201cI saw the article.\u201d My stomach plummets. The project wasn\u2019t supposed to be public knowledge. I rub a hand down my face. \u201cWe met with the label yesterday.<\/p>\n

We discussed it, but that\u2019s all for now,\u201d I tell her. \u201cI figured I\u2019d mention it the next time I visited. I\u2019m so sorry you found out like that. It was never my intention.\u201d \u201cI-I know. I just didn\u2019t expect it, and it sent me spiraling.\u201d She takes a deep breath. \u201cGod, you probably think I\u2019m an idiot.\u201d \u201cNever.\u201d My chest aches for this woman. \u201cAnd don\u2019t ever call yourself that. Grief is complex. You never know when and how it will hit.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cThank you so much, Hade. I have no idea what I\u2019d do without you.\u201d I force my shoulders to relax and rest my head against the seat. \u201cHow is Santi? I have a surprise for him.\u201d \u201cHe\u2019s fine. Every day, he gets better at driving me batty.\u201d She chuckles. \u201cHe\u2019s always thrilled to see you, you know, with and without surprises. He loves when his t\u00edo plays with him.\u201d Before long, Santi is begging for her attention, so we end the call.<\/p>\n

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The author acknowledges the trademark status and trademark owners of various products, and\/or brands referenced in the work of fiction. The publication\/use of these trademarks is not authorized, associated with, or sponsored by the trademark owners. Line Editing: Beth, VB Edits, https:\/\/vbeditsromance.com\/ Edited by Caroline Knecht, https:\/\/reedsy.com\/caroline-knecht Edited by Lawrence Editing, https:\/\/www.lawrenceediting.com\/ Edited by The Fiction Fix, https:\/\/thefictionfix.com\/ Cover Design by Anna Silka, https:\/\/www.instagram.com\/silka.art\/ This book is intended for an 18+ audience. For trigger warnings, please visit https:\/\/shor.by\/HADETWCW ISBN 978-609-08-1084-2 (ebook) ISBN 978-609-08-1083-5 (paperback) ISBN 978-609-08-1085-9 (special edition, paperback) OceanofPDF.com To the ones who stayed.<\/p>\n

And to those who are still learning how to live after someone they love couldn’t. OceanofPDF.com contents Playlist Author\u2019s Note 1. I Was Jealous 2. I Am Cursed 3. Lost Boy 4. The Distraction of Her 5. What Is So Different? 6. You\u2019re Not Joking 7. Why Are You Smiling Though?<\/p>\n

8. This Is a Terrible Idea 9. Where\u2019s Riley? 10. I\u2019m Sorry 11. A Very Confident Color 12. Reminiscing 13. A Questionable Roommate 14. To My Guilt 15. I Just Want Him 16. It\u2019s Riley 17. Fuck It 18. Just Once 19. That\u2019s What We Agreed On 20.<\/p>\n

Today Is Going to Be a Disaster 21. The Last Last Time 22. Good Girl 23. For Now 24. I Made a Mistake 25. Not Butterflies 26. It\u2019s Yours 27. You\u2026Lied 28. Then We\u2019re Keeping This Baby, Ry 29. I Guess I Got Myself a Roommate 30. I\u2019m So Glad You Stayed 31. My Only Love 32. I\u2019ve Been Thinking About You 33. You\u2019re like a Princess 34.<\/p>\n

Ride Me, Baby 35. I\u2019m Choosing Myself 36. Ready to See Your Baby? 37. Can I Kiss You? 38. Seven Minutes 39. I Love This Man 40. How Are You Even Real? 41. It\u2019s About Someone I Love 42. Our Iris 43.<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n

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