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Concerned my teachers. Was very quiet. Didn\u2019t talk to anyone. Picked up bugs on the playground. Talked to myself. Kept to myself. Would barely speak if another kid did try to talk to me.\u201d \u201cOh, what a shame we didn\u2019t go to the same school. We would\u2019ve been best friends,\u201d Sinclair grins. \u201cI always had a blast with kids like you. My favorite thing was when I\u2019d pay them a genuine compliment and they\u2019d start crying because they thought I was making fun of them.\u201d<\/p>\n

Sinclair laughs, as if remembering actual instances of this. Gregory doesn\u2019t know what to say\u2013he\u2026 there\u2019s no way Sinclair would\u2019ve liked him back then, he was even worse than he is now\u2013 And\u2026 \u201cThe trick is just to keep pestering the introverts. Eventually they start to believe you actually want to talk to them,\u201d Sinclair says with a glint of humor in his eyes.<\/p>\n

It\u2026 Worked on adult Gregory, didn\u2019t it? Gregory shrinks on the barstool somewhat, embarrassed. What would his life have been like if he\u2019d met Sinclair in elementary school, if he\u2019d actually had a friend growing up? Someone to stand up for him, to be on his side, to listen to him and smile at him, and\u2026<\/p>\n

\u201cHey, hey, what\u2019s wrong?\u201d Sinclair asks, something like actual concern on his face before he seems to draw some conclusion and a soft smile replaces the concern. \u201cHey, don\u2019t cry, we\u2019re friends now\u2013more than that! And it\u2019s better this way, I don\u2019t want to know how badly I would\u2019ve corrupted you if we met as children. You\u2019re perfect the way you are!\u201d Gregory buries his face in his hands and cries outright, unable to stop the emotion from rising in his chest.<\/p>\n

His fingers hurt. His heart hurts. So badly, so badly\u2013he can\u2019t, he can\u2019t breathe\u2013 \u201cShh, shh,\u201d Sinclair hushes, winding an arm around Gregory\u2019s shoulders, rubbing his arm in an attempt to soothe him. Gregory tenses and then melts into the touch, leans into Sinclair\u2019s body. It feels safe. Comforting. Like kissing Sinclair in the clearing had felt. Like sitting next to him in the diner had felt.<\/p>\n

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No part of this book may be reproduced in any form or by any electronic or mechanical means, including information storage and retrieval systems, without written permission from the author, except for the use of brief quotations in a book review. OceanofPDF.com To Jo ‘Gatobob’ Techsmith, Thank you for the inspiration and the freedom to figure out what parts of myself I’m allowed to rip out and put on a page and still call my own.<\/p>\n

OceanofPDF.com AUTHOR\u2019S NOTE: (A WARNING, WITH LOVE) This is a work of fiction by a queer, neurodivergent author that contains heavy mental health themes (particularly c-ptsd, anxiety and past trauma including self-harm and suicidal ideation). The nature of a captive\/captor relationship makes consent inherently dubious in fiction, though consent is always present in this fictional context. This work should only be read by adults who feel confident that they will not be negatively influenced or harmed by difficult subject matter.<\/p>\n

The gore and violence is extreme and romanticized. Despite the horror, this is romance. A full and extensive list of content warnings can be found at the back of this book. OceanofPDF.com CONTENTS I. Friend 1. Mess 2. Walk 3. Call 4. Promise 5. Locks 6. Screwdriver 7. Bones 8.<\/p>\n

Diner 9. Fork 10. Basement 11. Barrel 12. Restraint 13. Consent 14. First 15. Symmetry II. Home 16. Stitch 17. Choice 18. Brother 19. Sister 20. Bloom 21. Shower 22. Kindness 23. Blood 24. Sleep 25. Garden 26. Pet 27. Bathtub 28. Release 29. Self-Harm 30. Condition III. Family 31. Doorbell 32. Foregone Conclusion 33. Love 34. Home 35. Real 36. Favorite 37. Friend 38. Father 39. Forever 40. Simple 41. Room 42. Applause 43. Heart 44. Consequences 45.<\/p>\n

Happiness 46. Trauma 47. Attached 48. Forgiveness 49. Lake Acknowledgments Playlist Content Warnings Also by Carson Wulff OceanofPDF.com PART ONE FRIEND OCEANOFPDF.COM CHAPTER 1 MESS Gregory buys a remote cabin in the woods for a reason: he wants as little contact with other miserable, putrid human beings as possible. Tolerating his own existence is bad enough. He uses the modest trust fund his shitty parents gave him to buy it. The money was supposed to be for college. They weren\u2019t happy. He buys solar panels and expensive batteries to sustain power at all times so that his aquariums can be kept running even when the lines go down.<\/p>\n

Gregory himself could have done without power entirely. He could have lived by candlelight and sunlight and moonlight. Sustained from well water and provisions. But the fish\u2013the fish can\u2019t thrive like that. No, the fish need their filters running, their heaters, their lights. Every inch of his small cabin is stacked floor to ceiling with tanks of all sizes slotted together in perfect symmetry on their shelves, glowing with ambient light.<\/p>\n

That\u2019s all the light he needs, the glow of photons submerged in gallons and gallons of water.<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n

This is a short excerpt from the opening of “” by Unknown, quoted for review and introduction purposes. All rights belong to the copyright holders.<\/em><\/p>\n

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