Emo Reality The Biography Of Teenage Borderline Personality Disorder – Jerold Daniels

She told me she liked my dad sometimes, but the reason she was sticking with him was because she couldn’t get a job, and if they divorced she would have to repatriate to the Philippines because of her passport. The whole house was depressed, except for my dad. He had his globe- trotting job to keep him busy. He thought everything would turn out fine after I passed through my emo phase.

My sister found her razor and cut herself again. She posted a photo of her bleeding arm on DeviantArt, where she knew my mom would see it but my dad wouldn’t. I felt like slapping my sister when she cried, because she used to abuse me whenever I walked around looking depressed after I cut myself. She would say to me, “You don’t even do slitting right!”

But she cut herself the wimp way in her photo, across and not deep, and then she tensed her arm to get more blood to come out. What a hypocrite! When my mom saw my sister’s bleeding photo, she offered to send her to a psychiatrist. My sister refused, telling her that a psychiatrist would be no better than our psychologist. Looking back, my mom shouldn’t have offered psychiatric help to a child who was so disturbed she was cutting herself: she should have told my dad what my sister was doing, and, together, they should have demanded it.

My parents should have forced my sister and me into psychiatry to get to the root of our problems. But there wasn’t much awareness about mental health issues in those days, and especially not about the peculiar symptoms that we presented. Three weeks into grade ten I was still where I’d been at the end of grade nine: frustrated, angry, and exhausted, with teachers pounding down on me.

My effort grades were low because I couldn’t bring myself to try. None of the voices in my head told me to do well in school. My friends came over and we were going to go clubbing with our fake IDs. But my dad was like, “Fifteen years old is too young for nightclubs. May I offer you some wine? Vodka? How about Tequila?” What the fuck? We wanted to go out!

My friends agreed that dads sucked. Moms sucked too, but mostly it was our dads who sucked. During maths, my mind flew away and I started writing a script about a retarded gay man who talked about how boobs disturbed him. My maths teacher was standing behind me, which I didn’t notice because my mind wasn’t even in the classroom.

I nearly cried when she caught me. She was like, “Lina, you’re an excellent student and you can do better. I’ve heard that you like maths.” What the fuck?

The Biography of Teenage Borderline Personality Disorder © Copyright 2023 by Jerold Daniels Published by Singapress in Singapore All rights reserved. No part of this book may be reproduced, stored in a retrieval system, or transmitted in any form or by any means without the prior written permission of the publisher. This is a work of fiction. The characters, organizations, and events are products of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously.

ISBN (Paperback) 978-981-18-6734-7 ISBN (PDF) 978-981-18-6732-3 ISBN (Epub) 978-981-18-6733-0 ISBN (Audiobook) 978-981-18-6735-4 National Library Board Singapore Cataloguing in Publication Data Name(s): Daniels, Jerold. Title: Emo reality : the biography of teenage borderline personality disorder / Jerold Daniels. Description: Singapore : Singapress, [2023] Identifier(s): ISBN 978-981-18-6734-7 (paperback) | 978-981-18-6732-3 (pdf) | 978-981-18-6733-0 (epub) | 978-981-18-6735-4 (audiobook) Subject(s): LCSH: Teenagers–Mental health. | Borderline personality disorder. Classification: DDC 616.85852 Warning: Inside are the words of a teenager whose mental health collapsed in her teens. Her life has not been easy to live, and so her words are not easy to read.

They are painful, raw, obsessive, clichéd, and sometimes offensive, but that’s because they’re real; only her most outrageous millennial labels have been edited for modern readers. If you require trigger warnings, this book is not for you. OceanofPDF.com Our insulted and ridiculed mouse becomes absorbed in cold, malignant and, above all, everlasting spite. It will remember its injury down to the smallest, most ignominious details, and every time will add, of itself, details still more ignominious, spitefully teasing and tormenting itself with its own imagination.

It will be ashamed of its imaginings, but will go over and over every detail, will invent unheard of things against itself, pretending that those things might happen, and will forgive nothing. —Fyodor Dostoevsky Notes from Underground 1864 [abridged] i realized today while crying in the bathroom for hours that i’m never going to be able to live 100% for myself until my dad is dead even if i move out and never talk to him again, i wont be able to be completely for myself until he’s dead part of me is dedicated completely to spiting him even it if means ruining my own life —Lina, 15 Notes from Singapore 2008 OceanofPDF.com Author’s Note: This book is probably not what you expect.

It’s not a traditional novel where creative prose tells an invented story. It’s not an academic textbook about mental illness for mental health professionals. And it’s not a guide on how to help people who have borderline personality disorder. So what is Emo Reality? This is a biographical memoir that showcases the inner world of Lina, a living sufferer of borderline personality disorder, in her own words.

This is a short excerpt from the opening of “” by Unknown, quoted for review and introduction purposes. All rights belong to the copyright holders.

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