Her Envy – C M Raven

Air is getting scarce. I need to get away, but I can’t run. I sink to my knees. There is so much pain I want to scream. And then there is her face in front of me. She grasps my face. “Slow and steady breaths,” she says. “Follow my lead.” And she breathes in deep through the nose, out through the mouth. “In,” she says with the next inhale. “And out.” I do as she says. “In. And out.” I close my eyes, focusing on her words.

The sound of her voice and breaths guiding me. My skin tingles, but her touch calms me. “In. And out.” “In. And out.” “In. And out.” Finally, my breathing calms. A shudder runs through my entire body. I have to cry. I haven’t cried much over the years, and right now, all those years are catching up with me.

I cry for all the years I have lost. For all the times I had to put myself behind other people’s orders. For all I had to become what I was not. “Say it out loud,” she says. I look at her with my blurry vision and burning eyes. “Say it,” she says again, still grasping my face.

“I can’t,” I whisper. “Why?” “Because I’d have to acknowledge that he still has power over me,” I say in a cold and detached voice. “Because he has. He has as long as you decide he hasn’t.” The tears stop and dry on my cheeks as I distance myself from my memories. “Everything alright in there?” asks someone from outside the door. “Yes, sorry, I just hit my head slightly. We’ll be right back,” Jane calls behind her and lets go of me. I stare at her.

“You lied,” I say. “Learned from the best, didn’t I?” A weak smile hushes over my face, and she brushes back a strand of my hair. “You don’t have to protect me,” she says, and it is the first time I truly realize how much she knows about me already, how good she is in her profession. “Come on, let’s get you back to presentable and join them before anyone storms in here.” We get up, and I feel jittery for a second.

I splash some water on my face and get makeup, eyeliner, and mascara from my purse. Putting on the makeup is like a mask shielding me. “All done?”

C. M. Raven c/o Block Services, Stuttgarter Straße 106, 70736 Fellbach, Germany For more information about my books and everything else, visit: www.cmraven.com Background-Cover-Image: Evilicio inc. @unsplash OceanofPDF.com For CC OceanofPDF.com CONTENTS Content Notes DEDICATION PLAYLIST & MOOD BOARD Prologue 1. Amelie 2. Jane 3. Amelie 4. Jane 5. Amelie 6. Jane 7. Amelie 8. Jane 9. Amelie 10. Jane 11. Amelie 12. Jane 13. Amelie 14.

Jane 15. Amelie 16. Jane 17. Jane 18. Amelie 19. Jane 20. Amelie & Elise 21. Amelie 22. Jane 23. Amelie 24. Jane 25. Amelie 26. Jane 27. Amelie Epilogue Thank you for reading Her Envy Bonus Scene You want more sins… Welcome to The Murder Acknowledgements OceanofPDF.com CONTENT NOTES This book contains several dark and possibly triggering scenes, ranging from mentions of (gang)rape, abuse, and moments of very dubious consent with abusive behavior, including probably non-consensual spanking with a pan, fisting, and threatening with a gun, to extensive drug and alcohol use, suicide, stalking, panic attacks, heavy emotional topics, and the graphic description of a dead rabbit.

It is a why-choose, so have in mind there if FF & FFF scenes. One of the FMCs has autism. See the author’s website for the full list. Please know your limits and take care of your mental health. OceanofPDF.com DEDICATION Give your therapist a heads-up, grab an entire package of tissues, and get your vibrator ready, hun. OceanofPDF.com PLAYLIST & MOOD BOARD With every chapter beginning, you’ll find the name of the song I have associated with it.

Not only associated, but also heard while writing it. It is the music that helped me transport the words from my heart onto the page. Spotify Her Envy Spotify Full Her Sins Playlist Pinterest Moodboard OceanofPDF.com In loving you, I am betraying her. OceanofPDF.com “Y PROLOGUE PLAYLIST: ATLANTIS – SEAFRET London, 6 months ago ou will not look back,” my father says. “You can never return.” “But—“ I begin, but he cuts me off. “You can’t,” he says.

“The contract stated very clear rules of termination.” “She got abducted! And has no idea where and how—“ I shout at him, and tears fight their way into my eyes down my cheeks. “I can’t just leave her⁠—“ “You will,” he says harshly.

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