First Loss – Amber Cassidy (1)

* * * 11.5 years ago… — Dear Jensen, I miss you. I keep hoping to hear from you, but I know you’re probably getting settled in. My college acceptance offers are rolling in, but I think I want to stay here and visit as much as I can. These six years will fly by, I promise. I read online that you get to make phone calls, so please, call me.

I feel like you’re mad at me. Love, — Dear Jensen, Please, reach out to me. I miss you. I’m worried sick. If you’re mad at me about Mr. Arkett then I apologize and will apologize over and over. I knew it was wrong, and I never meant for you to find out that way. I knew you’d be protective of me. You always have been. I’m sorry for everything. Your best friend, — Dear Jensen, I’m falling apart without you.

I need you. I’m not going to college. I can’t live my life knowing that you’re stuck in there because of me. I’ll wait for you. I need you. Please, talk to me. Yours, always, Olive — Olive, I don’t want to talk to you. I don’t want to see you. Don’t try contacting me again. By the time you read this, I’ll be dead. — OceanofPDF.com Chapter Twenty-Five Hayes ou feel like eating?” Lochlan asks from outside my temporary prison cell. He was in one long enough.

He knows how to make something work on the fly. “No.” “If I open the gate, are you going to try to leave again?” “Yes.” He sighs, rubbing his hand over his head. “It’s nearly midnight.” “So?” The moon has been out for hours, but the floodlight beside the barn is the only thing providing me with any light. He holds up a piece of folded paper in his hand. “I want to give you this, but I need to know that your freak show from earlier is over with.”

“Why? Afraid I’ll hurt you again?” His purple cheek and swollen eye socket stare at me through the cage bars. He chuckles. “You look worse than I do, pretty boy. Besides, I got you in here once, I’ll do it twice if I have to.” “You only managed because you got me in a headlock when I wasn’t looking.

It was a cheap shot.” “A cheap shot that saved you from doing something stupid.” “Doesn’t matter now.” She’s a married woman. He tips the paper forward between the metal bars, handing it to me. “What is this?” “Jo told me I needed to give this to you asap.” I unfold the first crease, but my cracked and bloody hand stills. — Dear Jensen, — “Is this a joke?” I don’t take my eyes off the handwriting that I know by heart.

I don’t have to unfold the second half of the paper to know it’s from her. “Read it, I’ll be on the porch.”

First published by AC Books 2026 Copyright © 2026 by Amber Cassidy All rights reserved. No part of this publication may be reproduced, stored, or transmitted in any form or by any means, electronic, mechanical, photocopying, recording, scanning, or otherwise without written permission from the publisher. It is illegal to copy this book, post it to a website, or distribute it by any other means without permission. This novel is entirely a work of fiction. The names, characters, and incidents portrayed in it are the work of the author’s imagination.

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First edition ISBN: 979-8-9890036-8-6 This book was professionally typeset on Reedsy Find out more at reedsy.com OceanofPDF.com Contents Preface Acknowledgments Chapter One Chapter Two Chapter Three Chapter Four Chapter Five Chapter Six Chapter Seven Chapter Eight Chapter Nine Chapter Ten Chapter Eleven Chapter Twelve Chapter Thirteen Chapter Fourteen Chapter Fifteen Chapter Sixteen Chapter Seventeen Chapter Eighteen Chapter Nineteen Chapter Twenty Chapter Twenty-One Chapter Twenty-Two Chapter Twenty-Three Chapter Twenty-Four Chapter Twenty-Five Chapter Twenty-Six Chapter Twenty-Seven Chapter Twenty-Eight Chapter Twenty-Nine Chapter Thirty Chapter Thirty-One Chapter Thirty-Two Chapter Thirty-Three Chapter Thirty-Four Chapter Thirty-Five Chapter Thirty-Six Chapter Thirty-Seven Chapter Thirty-Eight Chapter Thirty-Nine Chapter Forty Chapter Forty-One Chapter Forty-Two Chapter Forty-Three Chapter Forty-Four Chapter Forty-Five Chapter Forty-Six Chapter Forty-Seven Chapter Forty-Eight Chapter Forty-Nine Chapter Fifty Chapter Fifty-One Chapter Fifty-Two Epilogue Chance Encounters Series About the Author Also by Amber Cassidy OceanofPDF.com Preface This is a dual-timeline, second-chance romance with a lot of angst and unresolved tension…

They both have different versions of their story, and they have to come to terms with their past before they can move forward into their future. But as always, you’ll get a happily ever after! Enjoy! *There is an overlap in the timeline of this book and the last book, First Chance.* TW: There are tough topics discussed, such as Suicidal Ideation and Attempted Suicide—content warning: Violence, Assault, Suicide, Attempted Sexual Assault.

OceanofPDF.com Acknowledgments I am grateful to have real-life inspiration for writing the friendships in this story.

This is a short excerpt from the opening of “” by Unknown, quoted for review and introduction purposes. All rights belong to the copyright holders.

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